Day 22

Today was a rather relaxing day and I am glad to be back on the road prepping for a game tomorrow afternoon. God has been faithful over the past few weeks and even though my wrist is still not at 100%, I know that I will be able to make it through tomorrow with his strength. I continued to read my new book today and I am absolutely enjoying it. I am learning so much about this area that I have struggled within the past and I am going to use what I have learned to break the bondage that I have been under for quite some time now. I have become more confident in myself over the past few weeks and I know that I can achieve my goals as long as I continue to make the choice to follow what has been instilled in me. The driving force behind my recovery is the blood of Christ and the pain he endured for my shame. I will not lie down and let the enemy walk over me because Christ already did that so I could taste victory after overcoming the struggle. I hope that my changes are becoming evident but I know that I still have an awfully long way to go. I need to overcome because I know that God is waiting to use me and these experiences will just build me up to the person that can help the people I come into contact with over the rest of my life. When we face trials, we gain knowledge that not everyone else has and that enables us to convey a message to people and they will be able to trust us and know that we know what we are talking about.

I barely put any time into my relationship with God and the time I do is not always wholly devoted to Him. I am ashamed that I cannot even give him 40 minutes of my undivided time every day when He poured his blood out for me and gave everything He had for 30+ years so that I could have life and be solely His. I can never match God in terms of commitment because he will stick by me no matter what I have done or the lack of time I have spent with Him, He wants to be my friend and my father regardless of how dirty and lost I am. Luke 22:44 states, "And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground." All I have to say is that if my savior can pour his heart out for me to the extent of practically bleeding for me, then I can put some more effort into my walk with him and do my best not to disappoint him on a daily basis. I can make it my heart's desire to chase after Him and grow closer to Him no matter what else is going on in my life. How can I know that someone cares about me so much and still reject spending any time with them whatsoever. I have been like the disciples who fell asleep in the garden while He was praying for them and for the things that were about to come to pass. I have fallen asleep during my walk down this path and I just messed up a few years of my life. The good this is that God grabbed ahold of me and I have been awaken to some new thoughts and I am going to use it the best I can.

God has been so great to me and I am thankful for all that He gives me through the blog and the interaction that I do have with him. I just know that He deserves more than I have given him and I will continue to strive to give Him my best. Thank you all for being faithful in reading and I will continue to pray for all of you!

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson