Day 18

So I get that I may not always be the most wise person and I get that some of the stuff I post on here is not always reflected in my life right away. This is a process of growing and changing, it is a gradual process that will reflect some immediate changes and then fine-tuning that will bring it all together in the end. I am trying to listen to what others are saying around me so that I can be a reflection of the things I am trying to accomplish through my study of the word and pursuing God on a daily basis. I cannot stress enough that this blog is not for me to be recognized for the gains I am making in my spiritual walk (or lack thereof). It is more of a journal for me to refer to when times get tough and to see where I have come from as a personal benefit. If I am able to adhere to everything I post on here then that is an added bonus and hopefully some people will be touched by it. I am not a minister, I do not counsel people, and I do not claim to have it all figured out when it comes to being a Christian and being perfect. Some of the stuff on here is geared more towards where I want to be at in my life, not necessarily where I am at. I feel like I am growing and things are changing but that may not always be the case. I felt that when I was at K-State I made some huge gains but I negated that all through various choices after I stopped seeking God on a consistent basis and things just spiraled out of control for a long time. I have been a mess for quite some time and turning things around has been quite the process and still in the beginning stages, only time will tell how much things have changed or whether anything has changed.

The only way I am going to consistently progress towards my goals in Christ is if I am letting the Holy Spirit guide me. When I need motivation or I am failing at something, it is the Holy Spirit's wisdom and tugging on my heart that will enable me to stand firm and overcome whatever I am facing. I need to get myself into fervent prayer to have the Holy Spirit come lead me into His presence. I have been doing things just on goodwill and knowledge of the word without much guidance from the Spirit and that will not be able to last very long in this world. John 16:13-14 states, "But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. He will bring glory to me by taking from what is mine and making it known to you" The Spirit is more than just a gift from God and it is not there to elevate our status as a Christian. We have been given such an awesome opportunity to have a personal counselor that lives inside us and leads us in the right direction when we are trying to take a wrong turn. I will admit that I ignore the Spirit some times if I even have it at all. I cannot help but doubt sometimes because of the choices that I have made in the past and the struggles I face. That is why I believe I need to be in prayer more and seeking the face of God on a daily process through just talking to him. I have talked about needing to be more in depth with my prayer time and it is something I have still failed to accomplish, I think I just need to block some time out of my evening and go into my room and pray behind closed doors and just see how God can work. I have nothing else to hold onto when it comes to being in the right state of mind and allowing God to work. I need to work harder to accomplish the goals I have set forth and only I can drive myself to get to that point with the work of the Spirit.

Thank you all for reading, I have been slacking recently and God needs more than just the end of my night, he deserves more from me. I am so glad I have people around me who are building me up constantly because without them I would be a mess. I think you people know who you are and I am so grateful for that. God is going to bless you for the investment that you have made in me and I hope you will continue to push me.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson