Last Chance

So two weeks crumbled in a matter of twelve hours and now I do not know what to think anymore. I know everything I have said matters but for some reason I know he feels like I am not doing what I told him I would not. In the same way, I feel like I am receiving some of what God has dealt with from me in recent months and years. I know that God is in this and that he is moving through my situation, I have no idea what it is he is trying to teach me but I know that it will all be okay in the end. I still love her just like he loves me and I will do anything it takes to keep her within my grasp just as I know he will do with me. I still feel like Job but maybe there is a better story to fit me. I keep pressing on but I just have to look to God for whatever it is he has for me because I cannot keep doing this alone, I am dying inside because of how much I hurt. I know that Jesus felt worse on the cross and every time I sin this is how God feels (and more). I just want to have resolve, I believe he wants this to work out, maybe someone just needs to realize how loved they are and how far someone is willing to go for them even though it hurts them more than anything in the world. I have always been taught that if you want something bad enough you go get it. I will not give up no matter what happens because I know God has given me unconditional love for one person for sure on this earth and I will never throw that away. God is faithful and I am faithful because I know that he has plans and that even though you never know what tomorrow will bring or if there will be a tomorrow so I want to show the ones I love just how much they mean to me because they deserve to know and they do not deserve to be mistreated even when I am unhappy. Sure we do not always get along but I will love them all the time no matter what happens.

I need a break right now and just need guidance and peace from God. Keep praying for me please, I hope to be able to clear my mind and grow even more tomorrow.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson

Trusting

I have had a rough past two weeks or so. School is fine and everything but I just seem to run into one problem after another. I feel like Job sometimes but obviously not quite on the same level. I know that God could push me aside or tell me I am not good enough but I also know that he loves me and that he wants to take care of me even in troubled times. He does not always agree with what I do but I'm still working at being pleasing to him every second of every day. I know that with him I have the power to overcome my struggles because I have proven to him and myself that I can do it. Sometimes it takes a momentary lapse of reason and your hard work seems to go down the drain. It is the worst feeling in the world but it is a choice and it can be changed. God makes my life so much more complete and when I am with him and I am alone, nothing can take away from the sensation that I get from him. I learn new stuff from him everyday and I am applying new concepts to my life with every passing day. The more I trust in him and his power, the more I see him working in my life even when I am having the worst day imaginable. I know there are tons of people that are proud of me but when things are crashing around me it is tough to make that the forefront of my thought process. For the first time last night, I felt that no matter what happens over the next week, God is sufficient for me and though I might have lost something, my love for him will always be enough. No matter what I do he will not run away from me but I need to stop being a jerk and not run from him even when things are not all as I want them to be.

Like I mentioned earlier, I feel like Job sometimes and Job persevered through all the things that he faced. If I feel like I cannot get a break to go my way, I just need to rely on the story of Job AND God and see that like Job, I can overcome these hardships. His majesty is coming and his glory will continue to be revealed until the time in which he returns for those who are in relationship with him. It will be an exciting day for him and for us. Just keep seeking God and what he has for you no matter what because in the dark, his light WILL shine because the darkness cannot hold its form when he is around. I know he has something good for me just around the corner and if I remain faithful and trust him, I will be overjoyed and greatly surprised by what it is he has in store. I believe this is true for most of us living here so be persistent and seek what God is waiting to give you!

I hope you are all doing well, God is great and will show you anything you are waiting to see. Just keep going after him with all that you have. Please let me know if you would like prayer.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson

It Will Come

The past couple weeks have been a blessing and they have been rough at the same time. Improvements in some areas have led to falling in other areas. A balance seems to be far out of sight but not without hope. It just is going to take more and more work to be well rounded and definitely a lot tougher than I expected. Baseball is going well though the team is not doing great but we are "getting there" unfortunately it's been that way for 3 weeks. I'm optimistic though and definitely am not giving up, I just others would not be content with where we are at. Chelsi is a long story but I'm relying on God to get US through, not just me. There are things that need work, they just need to be actually worked on, not just stated that they will be worked on. I know that it should not take this much work but if you do things right from the beginning, they do not take work later on. This is a problem I believe we have run into and it's good that we noticed it this early but on another level, it might be too late. Only time will tell and I believe God is watching over it but ultimately it's our decision. God is still at work in me and progress is being made but it's still such a slow process because of my decision making and I know I need to get over it. I break the cycle and then I fall back in definitely the definition of insanity on my part. I know that God's work will be brought to completion when I wake myself up and kick it into 4th gear. Time is running out everyday though so I hope that I do it soon! Israel has spent thousands of years fighting and working towards freedom and God promised them that one day he will rebuild them and I have that same confidence in my life. It Will Come!

Micah 7:8-13 talks about the fall of Israel an the rebuilding process and pretty much it is being stated that the enemy better watch out because a day will come when they will fall and Jerusalem will rise again. There is hope for any situation because God holds to his promises and we cannot ever forget that. Trust that God is in control when you give it to him and he will make sure that you are blessed because of it. You might not see it right away but be persistent and It Will Come! He will be coming back and people have said it for many many years but he will be back soon, know that the rapture is possible any day so always be prepared. It Will Come! Focus on the little things in life and the let the big things be taken care of by the outcome of the smaller things. Usually that is all it takes but we get caught up in the big tasks that we forget some of the minor details, it happens all the time in many aspects of life. Jesus called us to do for the "least of these" and I believe that applies in all things. The least of these means taking care of what seems to be futile or a waste of time. Remember that he is watching and will make us account for all that we do here. It is not to scare you but to remind you that all that you do here will be brought up in front of him so he can give you and me a fair judgement.

I hope you are all doing well, please let me know if you need prayer. God is moving and I know that he wants to do some great things in many people.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson