Day 19

Today was a good day, I got barely any sleep but I feel like I got some stuff accomplished and I did not let myself become too distracted with everything that has been going on. There has been so much chaos in the last week with the baseball schedule up in the air, exams in classes, registering for classes, and just the normal NCU life, that I have been just battling to get through without being too tired and trying to stick to my goal of posting. Tonight was another one of those busy nights where just about anything could happen and a couple of us guys on the team decided to get haircuts with some unusual styles. I have realized that as I close out my college career I am running out of opportunities to just have some fun and be somewhat of a kid. Baseball is as close to being a kid that I get to be these days and it is the best feeling ever even at the age of 21. I could not ask for a better opportunity to play the game that I love the most. Sure there are bigger stages and high pressure situations but nothing compares to having a majority of your school personally asking someone on your team how you did. In the higher levels, everyone knows how you did and they do not really care to ask how you did or ask what type of game it was and I think that takes out some of the experience. I am so happy to be where I am at and I cannot wait to see where God takes me over the next year and one month. It is hard to believe that I am closing it all out next year but it just begins a new chapter and I will hopefully have grown immensely from the time I entered the university setting to the time I cross the stage with great honor from a university that I have had the chance to call home.

I would say one of my major struggles over the last two years has been just trusting God's will for my life and submitting myself to Him. The things that I want have been at the forefront of my mind and that is why I have found myself in a world of trouble. I wish I could say that I got through the battle without being wounded but I have definitely inflicted pain on myself unintentionally but I know that things are getting better. I am still recovering and the wounds take time to heal, I just need to remind myself that the scabs need to heal because if I reopen the wounds, I am opening myself up to infection and even more pain than before. If I can get on the same page with God on a daily basis then I have no doubt that my battle to overcome the struggle will become easier. The Spirit empowers us and gives us the tools to succeed in just about any way possible, I just need to trust that and rely on it in my daily life. Luke 24:22 states, "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will but yours be done." I have discussed the need to give everything to God and just allowing him to work and this verse is a great illustration of that. Jesus had the power to avoid giving up his life but when it came down to it, he did not see giving in or failure as an option. In our lives, we should carry the same mindset and allow God to work no matter how we feel or what is going on, our time is ultimately his time and it is our job to acknowledge that and let him use us as effectively as possible.

Thank you all for reading, God blesses those who are faithful. Please continue to keep me in prayer. I have heard from a few of you and I know God will continue to use us to reach out to each other. I hope you all had a good day.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson