So I know I am not perfect, I know that I have a history and I know that the things I do currently may not reflect a whole change. I make assumptions that everyone is on the same page as me and that is wrong. I put stuff on here and I give people a perception of me. Personally I do not care about the opinion that people have of me but when it comes to the things I represent, I do care about the perception and opinion that it reflects on those things (God, NCU, the baseball team, my family, and ultimately my friends). We all have a huge responsibility to represent certain people, institutions, or groups and the things we do and say all reflect either positively or negatively on those various groups. I do my best not to point fingers but I know that I do and I hurt people from time to time, I wish I could say that I have never done that but I have and I just have to strive everyday to avoid those situations. I really wish I could be a better example on a daily basis but I know that at the same time I need to grow and I am not at the level that I need to be at with Christ. I think that we are all inexperienced in certain areas and we need to help each other grow over certain things. I tend to have a bit of an ego in certain areas and I need to learn to humble myself a little more and let God come to the forefront. If I do things in his name then they need to positively reflect on him and his ideas for my life. I cannot continue to live in a destructive way and fall apart at the seams while God is tugging at me and trying to help me overcome certain things. There are issues that I need to clean up and people I need to be more respectful of otherwise I will just continue to crash and burn. Satan is trying to fall through the cracks right now and I have to keep looking to God to get through.
Luke 16:10 states, "Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much." I have had a hard time showing God that I can handle the small plate that he has given me and I have a long way to go to work my way up to some of the bigger things that he wants to hand down to me. He has put me in situations but I have messed them up and he just tells me that I need to pick it up and we will go at it again. He sees me working and maybe some of my logic or morals are a little messed up but when I get that lined up, I feel like God will be able to trust me with a little bit more. If I continue down the path that I am on, that is great but I need to continue to get better at what I am doing now so that I can grow and be flawless in this area in the next 5-10 years. Only I can change the decisions I make and the perception I give off. Ultimately we can not even try to follow the will of God or we can give ourselves to his cause and hit some speed bumps along the way. Find out which road you are taking and sell yourself out to it, I hope you choose the road that leads to Christ. It is better to struggle early and recover than it is to think you are headed down the right road but never attain what you are truly looking for.
I hope you all had a good day. Mine was pretty hectic but I tried to get this thing up in time. I fell asleep trying to rest a bit as I was posting and instead of 1:30 A.M, this is getting posted at 6 something. Thank you all for your continued support and readership, it is greatly appreciated!
God Bless,
Joseph Robinson
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