Feeling Better

I did not post the rest of my spring break trip because we spent most of it expecting to play baseball but were unable to do so as a result of the weather. For some unknown reason, I have come back to campus with a different feeling about me and I must say that it feels good. Nothing spectacular happened on the trip in my spiritual life, I just followed the normal routine but for some reason when I stepped off that bus things were just very different. God has brought this peace about me and I am much more upbeat than I normally am and I really love being in this mood. I feel like some things are crashing around me but I am giving it all to God and letting him take care of the outcome. I have done everything I can up to this point and I cannot change people's minds and I cannot influence those who do not know me if they are not willing to give me a chance. God is most important in my life and I will give everything that I am to him because he is the most deserving of all that I am and I know that his joy is sufficient for me. I am overcoming Satan and I will not let him control the situation anymore. He has intervened in relationships with friends and with Chelsi and he is tearing us down every chance he gets. God brings two people together so they can bring him glory and I know that we could do a better job because we have not done all that we can to show God that he is at the front of our relationship. Everything will not always be perfect but I know that there are things in which I can work on to make things better but I cannot become better for someone who thinks it is not possible at this time. I am moving on and letting the past be the past because it has to much stake in the present.

James 3:2 and James 3:13-18 are really what I feel God is speaking to me right now and I hope that those who I have wronged or have hurt will understand those verses because I know that they apply directly to me. We are human and it takes us time to figure things out, they don't just happen but some people think that when the time is right, things just fall into place and it does not happen that way. I just want things to be normal and to not fight or argue with people all the time but I do not know if it is just me standing up for what I believe or arrogance but I will not back down from what I believe God is doing and from who I am because someone says it is wrong or that we do not mix well. It has nothing to do with mixing, it is about being accepting of another person and figuring out what works. I know that God's hand is no everything and I will be okay no matter what but I know that I am truly in love because I am willing to stick this out no matter what comes against us. God is so amazing and I will hold on to him until the day I die because he is that amazing.

I hope you are all doing well and I am praying for all of you who read this.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson

Why?

I have seen over the last week how much God is needed in every aspect of my life and I am okay with that. I am walking with God pretty well with a few jagged edges here and there but overall I am growing stronger in him each and every day. I know that I can only keep my supply running for a limited time before I need him and I want to continue to have him supply me with all that he can because then I will never run out of energy and I will never lose hope. I am reading through Revelation right now with Chelsi and am excited for what God is going to do in the end so that we will have a perfect place to reign with him. I am working diligently to share with Chelsi everything that God is doing with me but sometimes what God is doing takes time and it gets frustrating for both of us. We tend to clash on several different levels but my love for her and for God will never change. He will see us through any adversity we may face but we have to continue to seek him with all that we are. I'm sick and tired of Satan constantly trying to tear down good opportunities in my life because all he is concerned with is destroying what God has already completed. I know that God is here though and he will supply me with the strength I need to overcome Satan and the lies that he tries to make me believe.

Overall, I would say that things are going pretty well, baseball is in full swing and we are going to be very solid this year. God has blessed me with a great group of guys. I am ready to see how he is going to use all of us over the next few months together. The semester is already half over and time will continue to fly by. I got an assignment back and was not to happy with the result. I feel I did my best with the resources I had available to me, I did not slack on the assignment but I know God will strengthen me through this and I will bounce back. I am so proud of all the people in my life. My friends, my family, Chelsi, and most importantly God. They have accomplished so much and given so much to me that I would not know where I would be without them. I am truly blessed with a great group of people around me at all times. I must continue to be strong in the Lord and let his love and grace be displayed through me.

I am continuing to pray for all of you and I will continue to think about those that read this and trust that God will continue to work in you. Please continue to remember and pray for me..

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson