Not Over

I know I have not posted in a while and I said I was not done and I want you to know that I am not done. I have had a hard time getting things straightened out recently and have not been spending ALL my time very wisely. I have been studying and bringing my grades up to what I know I am capable of by proving it on my tests. It is not that I was slacking, it is just that I was not trying my best on tests because I just have accepted that I am not a good test taker but that does not have to be the case if I put more time into it. The past week has sent many tests my way and Satan has tried to fight his way in but last night i put my foot down with the help of Christ and I told Satan that he has a foothold no more. I finally decided to "Man Up" and make changes that I have desperately needed to make in order to grow in ways I never thought I could. I explained things to someone and I had no idea what I was saying except for what God was speaking through me. I was not speaking in tongues but I know the words coming to my lips were not just my own thoughts but they were Christ speaking through me so that someone could better understand something and understand where I am coming from. I have made excuses to not post in the past week or so and I have shut God out, I apologized to him because he deserves to be first in my life because he sent his only Son to die for me because he cared that much about me. Jesus hung on the cross for me even when my mistakes were already known, even though he knew I would take advantage of grace without even RECOGNIZING that I was. The grace of God is enough but when we abuse it, it loses it's meaning to us and no longer has the power it had (on those who take advantage of it) until changes become evident in their life. We cannot keep on sinning so that grace may increase.

I do not want to pose any new verses or ideas really but I want to address an old one and bring a new philosophy that I have probably already addressed and since I know that I probably will not go back and read it, I will quite possibly post it for a second time tonight. I posted a while back on Romans 7 which states, "For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate to do." I have struggled with this and it crosses my mind every time I find myself in a situation I should never be in to begin with or when I sin and know that I did wrong, I think if we look at this in a negative way and think that we are going to just continue living like this and we can do nothing about it, then we will continue to sin and just think it is apart of our human nature because we sin, we are human. But why not think of it this way? "For what I want to do I do, but not what I hate to do." Why would we do something that we despise or hate anyway? I do not think that it makes sense that we would continue going on doing things that we hate to do or that make us feel bad afterward because in the end there is no reward or satisfaction, just temporary satisfaction. I know that every time I sin (no matter what it is), I get temporary happiness (fake happiness) if you will and then it goes away and I am left unfulfilled. But Jesus tells the woman at the well to drink his water and she shall never thirst again and we should long for the water and bread of Christ so that we will never go unfulfilled again. From here on out, I do what my heart in Christ wants to do, not that which I hate. If I am filled with the desire of Christ and long for it, then I am going to make sure that I pursue it and do not ignore it. Too long has God gone unnoticed in my life and on my campus, I have been talking about change and revival, well it starts here and now, we press on toward the goal which we have been called heavenward and we will see it to the end!

I am going to get back on daily posting, this weekend will be hectic as I will be heading to Minnesota to visit a school but I am excited to see what God has for me. My prayer has been lacking lately, so please pray for me about that and I will remember all of you in prayer tonight. Have a great evening and keep seeking Him!

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson