Day 37

God is teaching me patience right now and I must say it has been amazingly tough. In just about every aspect of my life or just anything I do, I have to try and take things slow and when I try to rush I end up making mistakes. I have completely put myself in position to learn some valuable lessons and I am trying to persevere through some of these tougher times and I hope that I can continue to wait and just see where things go. My wrist injury has been slow and nagging and I jammed a few fingers today in the first inning of the second game. I wish things were easier in some areas but I need to learn from certain things and I need to continue to seek God in spite of everything I am facing. One thing has remained constant over the last few months and that is God. My family has been a huge influence and has been there for me but I know that God is always going to be right there pushing me and building me up even when I am struggling to glorify Him on a daily basis. I have never experienced his love in the way that I have over the last several weeks or so and I am so grateful for the opportunity to give back to Him daily. I still need to be more intentional with him as well as relational. I am trying to learn stuff but I am not talking to Him much and I am definitely not listening for His voice as well as I could be and I know that needs to change if I want to be completely successful.

Proverbs 16:32 states, "Better a patient man than a warrior, a man who controls his temper than one who takes a city." Patience comes in many different forms and situations. It can apply to temper or it can apply to just waiting for something to come to you. I can relate to needing growth in both areas and I am doing my best to understand this concept and allow for something to flourish. I am working towards it and learning some concepts that I can apply and I am trying to push myself to new levels. It may take awhile and I might hurt some people along the way because of the way I have done things in the past but ultimately I need to reach the goal I have set before me and achieving it will not be a very easy road. God has blessed me immensely with the people that are around me and as a leader I know that I have failed in more ways than one. I am trying to figure this leader thing out because it does not seem to be working and I feel like I might be the wrong person for the job the more that I think about it. I know this is contradictory to one of my posts from last week but I do not seem to be getting anywhere and I feel like I could do more without being a "leader" and I would not have people taking things out of context or just going against me as much. I could be wrong but those are just my thoughts.

I hope you all have a good night and I hope that God is continuing to bless you and reach out his hand to you. Please pray for my fingers and for my wrist. The list gets longer and longer each passing day but God CAN handle all of it.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson