Day 5

With every passing day I feel stronger but I know that there is something working against me. I have not and will not waiver from my goal though and I will stand strong no matter what continues to come my way. There are many times that we do not want to deal with certain things but the way that we carry ourselves through those times really shows our character and whether we have thick blood in times the trouble or if we complain and whine our way through to the end. I know that I have been complaining about the stuff I am going through but I have not dealt with anything like this before and I know that I will make it through and grow because of it. God's hand is in the situation and God has ultimate control over it, I am willing to let him have control of it because I have done everything in my power to honor what he would want me to do. It is weird how fast you have to change your mindset sometimes and hopefully it leads to maturity when all is said and done. Just because you handle one situation well does not mean you are automatically mature, it means that you are maturing and the process is moving forward. However, you can negate the process by not actually learning from anything and going back to the way things were before. In the same way, we can learn and grow a little in our faith but if we go back to the way we were before, we can never fully mature and we will be stuck as spiritual babies for quite some time. Being a leader, I feel like I am more of a leader by example rather than voice when it comes to making people do things. I know I have a voice to explain things to people and can motivate people but I am not a forceful voice who can get people on task or reprimand them. I try to do things the right way as much as I can and then I go about my business as if it were expected of me, I try to direct attention away from me but I know that people are always watching. Overall, I think that maturing and being a leader come hand in hand, the more that one matures, the more influential of a leader they can be and the results will take care of themselves.

I am ready to move on up and stop being the old me. I have wanted to do this for quite some time as noted in previous posts but I have failed to take initiative and it has led me to where I am today. I wish I had chosen the road less traveled at an earlier time in life but we learn from mistakes and we grow. I have done some pretty dumb things but I do not want to make any of those again because they lead to heartache and they leave me feeling like I will never be good enough for certain people. Now that I am chasing after God and trying to allow him to speak into my life, I will do what I can to give him the spotlight in my life and do his work where he sees fit. I am tired of just giving him a portion here and a portion there and failing to let him grow in me. Yes, a little yeast works through the whole batch of dough but if you do not put enough yeast in, it cannot rise as much as it could. 1st Peter 2:2-3 states, "Like newborn babies, crave spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good." There is only one way to develop a strong foundation in God and that is too seek him and take in his written word as well as listening for his voice in your life. Eventually we will grow up and God will give us things to chew on and will develop our spiritual muscles and minds but it takes that initial foundation for us to learn how to walk in the ways of the Lord and then we start to take steps before ultimately joining the race and running towards the finish line.

I hope you all had a good day. We have a long one ahead of us tomorrow as we head down to Missouri for 4 baseball games this weekend. Please pray for my wrist this weekend before I get some time off next week. If you need prayer, do not hesitate to ask and as always, thanks for reading!

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson