If there is one thing I have learned over the years, it is do not look back when it comes to making an important decision. The minute you start to second guess yourself, things that you wanted to let go of start coming back. Last night I said I left some stuff on the altar and I did not look back nor did I really want to. I am sick of going through the process of moving on from things and then letting them linger in my life and continue to cause problems. A lot of time we do this with sin because we just think "one more time will not hurt." The problem with this is that just one more time becomes a habit of thinking and then the problem becomes worse than it was before you decided to make a correction. When we pursue things, we have to work at it and make sure that the past does not continue to bite us and that is definitely something God can help us with. Commentators of football games always say that a Quarterback has to have a short memory after he had a bad series or throws an interception, the same is true for us as Christians in that when we mess up we need to have a short memory, especially when we decide to change a lifestyle. Recovering is one of the toughest things to do and God knows that, I think it is precisely why he forgives us instantly when we repent because he cannot let it linger in his mind as well because it does frustrate him as it should for us. There will come a time to look back on life and on the things that affected you but not right away, one needs to let things settle down first and make sure they no longer have the same affect that they used to. When we let this happen, God will provide us a way to stand up under it and nothing will be able to defeat us. Satan uses our mistakes and our human minds against us because he knows we are weak by ourselves but with God we are made new and we no longer have to let any of that bother us. I have determined that it is time for me to look ahead with no distractions, going through the healing process, grow closer to God, and ultimately look for a new direction and person who will impact my life in a huge way.
Proverbs 4: 25-27 states, "Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. Do not swerve to the right or the left, keep your foot from evil." This is exactly my aim right now and is something I forgot 13 months ago when I started to push myself in the direction of self-destruction. I need to be on the same page with God in and out of relationships because he sustains all things by his powerful word and I know that he will not accept anything less from me. Everything he does is seen to completion and I know that he will continue to use me in the ways that he sees fit, therefore, I have nothing to worry about as long as I keep this in mind. Sure I am broken and bruised, but I am still capable and willing and to God, that is all that matters. I am sure there are many of you who read this that feel that you are not good enough or that you are just in too many pieces, but know that God can and will put you back together IF you let him. That is a lesson that has taken me a little over a month to learn but I know that I will be okay now and I am ready to continue on the firm path that he has laid out before me. A new journey has begun and I am definitely not in the quitting business, you are either with me or you are behind me because I cannot have anything hold me down, that is a lesson a should have put into effect a long time ago but I blinded myself in order to justify things. Please hold me accountable to this as I believe it is something we all struggle with to an extent. If you need me to do the same for you, I will certainly be willing.
If you need prayer, let me know. Please keep praying for me and seeking after God in all that you do.
God Bless,
Joseph Robinson
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