Turnaround

I think if I were still posting days, I would be at 93 right now. Though they have not been consecutive, God has really done amazing things for me in the past months since October. He has provided a door for me to play baseball, he has helped me get over things that I thought I would never be able to let go, and he has renewed many things in my life that I had thought might be lost forever. He has strengthened me and he has opened my eyes to his plan and given me the vision to do his work. God has worked in amazing ways and brought people into my life and has given me people to talk to and just be able to open up to. God has taught me to appreciate others and put others before me because he has instilled a new passion and has given me a heart full of more love than ever. I still have a hard time controlling things within myself but I am better than where I used to be. Changes are slowly becoming evident in me and other changes still need to be made. God has definitely brought light to the everyday struggles I face and has given me ways to avoid problems. Last summer I found myself in deep one night and God pulled me through because he had bigger plans for me. I cannot be more proud of the decision that I made that night and I give him all the glory for guiding me and showing me that I had a higher purpose. God has intended for us to experience things in a timely manner and he will never put us in a situation in which we cannot get out. He takes all our fears and bottles them up and brings us peace when everything is chaotic. He has truly blessed me!

The turnaround in my life has been one I had been waiting quite a bit for. The problem was I was waiting on God to do something and I was not set on making the changes I NEEDED to make in order to become who he wanted me to be. I could sin and think nothing of it because I felt that I was going to be okay and then I tried to blame all bad things that happened to me on the fact that I had sinned. The problem is that my lack of faithfulness was leading to destruction and was tearing down everything I had worked for. I was wasting and losing opportunities faster than ever but I decided one day that it needed to change and I do not think I have been the same person since. There are certain characteristics that are just a part of who I am but I have changed. In Psalm 30:11-12, it states, "You turned my wailing into dancing, you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever." This is exactly how I feel everyday when I realize what God has done for me and how different I am from the person I was 5 months ago. I was not looking for who I was because I am already who I am, I just finally found the way I was supposed to go and embraced who I was.  When I was caught in sin and not walking in step with the word, I was ignoring who I was, the turnaround came when I decided to become who I have always been but was too afraid to be. I try to take that with me everywhere I go because we do not go around looking for who we are, that is a battle that can never be won. We need to embrace who we are. 

I can say with confidence that God picked me up out of the dirt and said it is "game time." If you know me then you know that the one thing that gets me going is when game time rolls around. Blood is rushing, confidence is at a high and the nerves are just fueling the fire. It is the one time in which I feel like I am ready to go and nothing can take that joy away. The change in me has made me want to do what I can to serve the Lord and call on his name for all of my days and I am excited about that. The definition of a sackcloth is, "garments made of such cloth, worn formerly to indicate mourning" I can say that God has taken away any mourning and self pity and he has made me better and happier because of it. He gave me an opportunity and I ran with it. If you are not a Christian and think I am just some Jesus Freak or I have weird beliefs, that is fine. But ask yourself if you are passing an opportunity for happiness. You might be searching in the wrong places so why not give this a try? The only thing it can be is another disappointment, or it could be the greatest decision of you life? You will never no unless you try. "50 years from now when you look back at your life, don't you want to say you had the guts to get in the car." Yeah I know its from transformers but it is so true and I think it applies perfectly.

I am praying for all of you and hope you are continuing to seek him. Stay safe and have fun. Hope you all had a great day and I hope to talk to some of you soon.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson