Desire

Well, I know this does not count towards my consecutive days because it is 3 A.M. right now but last night after I finished my prayer, I fell asleep, I had been running on 4 hours of sleep and was up at 5:30 so the potential for me to crash was very high. I woke up and was almost angry but then I realized that Satan wants me to get angry and frustrated so that he can win by showing me that I failed. Instead I decided to give up an hour of sleep and make a post. Once again, it is not about a consecutive days streak, it is about allowing God to make changes in my life and as long as I take heart what I am reading and posting about then I will come out of it a different person. Yesterday I sat in a line for 5 hours in freezing temperatures so as to hold my group's spot in line for the game against KU today. We had to show up by 7:30 yesterday and have at least 3 people stay in order to hold the spot and we were allowed to leave at 6. I realized that if Christians had this devotion to wait on God and lined up to do his work, the Christian church would probably double overnight. I also thought, how far would we go if we had to wait all day in the worst conditions (snow, wind, rain, below zero temps) if we had the chance to just catch a glimpse of God's face? We should carry our devotion to the things that matter in life to a higher level than the devotion we have towards things that bring us down and help us become part of this world. 

In Colossions 3, we are told the type of devotion and desire we are to have when it comes to heaven and to God. Verses 1 and 2 state, "Since, then. you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on the things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things" I tend to direct my attention to the things I need to get done while I am here. I have so many earthly goals that I tend to push my heavenly ones aside sometimes and that is when I end up getting hurt. When we let our priorities fall and God becomes 2nd, 3rd, or 4th on our list, we tend to see that things tend to be much tougher and we have a hard time following anything that God has planned for us because we are so busy that we just tell God that we will do it later. The problem is that later comes and we tell him we will do it later. God wants me to act now, he does not want to wait for me to act. You know, if Noah had waited to build the ark then he too would have drowned in the flood. God told him what he needed to do and even though he thought God might be a little crazy, he followed him because he trusted in him and had his heart set on the heavens and what God was doing, not on the earth and what he was doing at the time. As I have said before, we cannot keep telling God "tomorrow" because tomorrow may never come. I do not apply that as well as I should and I think that falling asleep has been a wake up call to me and showed me that I need to straighten some things out and have a different routine so as to put my focus more on God and less on me.

God is preparing to do and is starting to do amazing things in me and I am having a hard time just getting to that point where I can fully let him do that. I am right on the edge and ready to explode with his love and grace but I just seem to be a little stuck right now. I am pushing to get over the edge. Please pray for me and pray that I can overcome any emotional weakness that I may be experiencing so that I can push through and jump to a new level.

I hope you all had an amazing day and I am still praying for all of you. I hope that God continues to bless you and your families and just remember that staying faithful to him can be tough but in the end it will definitely be worth it.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson