Day 55

No need to tell me that my consecutive days streak of 2 ended... I traveled down to Oklahoma city on the day of my last final and was busy from the time I woke up until I went to bed at almost 12 in OKC. The next day I spent time with my Grandpa and Uncle as well as my Mom. Let me just say, if you have ever heard Abbot and Costello, my Grandpa and Uncle are about as close as you can get to the real thing. I enjoyed spending time there and going out with my mother to do some stuff. Then yesterday, I drove for 17 hours straight from OKC to Phoenix and when I got here I unpacked and then I went to bed because I went to my old church and joined the Bible Quiz practice this morning at 9. Last night was a little rough and I slipped up a little as well as today, but I am back on track with the blogs and I will not let myself nor God down. I hope that you all will continue to follow even when I miss days. I really think that people can benefit from it and I know that I am growing and trying to make changes everyday. Even though sometimes I feel like I am just hitting the skipping point on a DVD, I know that I am getting stronger and striving to make changes. With that, I was reading Luke and I came across something that I thought was interesting and thought of a good way to apply it to me.

Luke 18:31-34 states, "Jesus took the Twelve aside and told them,'We are going up to Jerusalem, and everything that is written by the prophets about the Son of Man will be fulfilled. He will be handed over to the Gentiles. They will mock him, insult him, spit on him, flog him, and kill him. On the third day he will rise again.' The disciples did not understand any of this. Its meaning was hidden from them, and they did not know what he was talking about." Here we find the disciples trying to understand what must take place in order for prophecy to be fulfilled. Not only that, but I bet there were a few who understood but did not know why it had to be Jesus. They stayed quiet for it was not the time to question the Son of Man's own prediction about his death. After all, he is the Son of Man.  There must have been confusion among them and almost for sure when they had some time alone, they were talking amongst themselves about all this prophesy and were trying to figure out why it must take place now. It is said that the night is always darkest before dawn and we see that the world will get worse before God returns and reigns.  The disciples had to understand this in order for them to understand why the prophecy was so important, they eventually realized this after they saw Jesus in the time following his resurrection, but it took time.

In my life, I feel that I have hit some of the darkest points I will ever hit and I feel that the dawn is upon me. Soon the sun will have risen and the son will have risen in me and the light will shine through me and I will be a good representation of my creator. This sun is one that will never set and will never run out of its energy because the fuel comes from him who created me. I still need to get to that point where I am sold out 100% for Christ and until that comes, I am going to keep falling and getting back up, I want to get to the point where I am standing firm permanently and then picking others up as they fall down. Like the disciples, I do not always understand why I go through some of the things I go through but God has a plan and as long as I stop being foolish and making the same mistakes over and over, his plan will be set into action. It is all about trust and faith in him and letting him take control of the things that are too great for us to handle on our own. Temptation and sin for instance, I still find myself trying to overcome it on my own and I still fail because I cannot do it on my own. I do not think it is so much trial and error as it is just me being ignorant and not doing what I should be doing. I am trying to make the break one where I break a few habits and then take them back with me as I head into a new semester. I am going to pray tons over break because I think that even if I only spend one more semester at K-State, he is going to work through me to reach some kids on that campus and it is up to me to answer the call and seek him so that I can touch others. Things may have to take place in my life in order for that to happen but like the disciples, I need to try and clear any confusion and just take it for what it is worth when it comes from God.

I am going to post everyday at least until I head back to Kansas because I have another long 17 hour drive back to OKC on January 13, so I am looking at about 3 solid weeks of posts and I want people to hold me accountable. I still do not think it is acceptable to miss these (especially over break) and I want people to know what is going on if I do not post. Please just ask me what is up and why I did not post because I will say that about 99 percent of the time I would NOT have a good reason too. I hope you all had a great weekend and that finals went well for all students who had them and I hope you all made it home in a safe and timely manner. I will continue to pray for you and I hope you will do the same for me.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson