Day 48

So today, I did not get around to reading my bible in the morning but I did pray to God on my way to class. I knew it was something that would warm me up inside even though there was snow on the ground outside. It was amazing to see how much easier it was to get through my day with him by my side after I had invited him to come walk with me. I was pretty lazy today but I did stay out of trouble and will start preparing for my finals over the next few days. I know he will guide me along as I take those and as I am studying for me. He will provide for me in my time of need because he hears my call and knows that I love him. I will be patient and learn to accept things as they come and praise him no matter what the outcome. Each day I grow closer to him and each day I see the wonders that he can do. I know that I will never be alone no matter what happens and I always have someone to talk to. Taking the next few steps will take faith and it will take me showing that I can demonstrate my love for God. It definitely will not be easy, but I know that it will be worth it in the end.  

Walking in the Spirit can be a hard thing to come by but once the Spirit dwells inside of you, there is no going back. It can come like the wind and knock you off your feet and you will be changed forever. Jesus says in John 14:15-21, "If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever--- the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him." This sort of expands on what I said yesterday, but now it says that if we love him, we will have another counselor come live with us, as we will not be left as orphans. The world no longer sees him but we do and it is our job to educate the world so that he can reveal himself to them as well. 

As a Christian, the only way I can receive this is by following God's plan for my life and for doing my best to listen to what he has for me. Instead of talking with my friends about that girl and staring at her, I should be the controlled one and maybe say something but then carry on with my business so as to not let it become a distraction. Keeping my eyes fixed throughout the day on whatever is good, whatever is noble, whatever is pure, is going to be the only way that I can know that I am walking in step with God. It is so hard for me sometimes because I DO get caught up in the moment. I know I am not the only one who struggles with this and I know that it is not just something that guys struggle with. It is funny, I posted a while back about how I do not want to be in a relationship, but I still look at girls and try to picture myself with them, but deep down inside, I know that it is not what I want or what I need and I snap myself out of it. It is just amazing how we can get sidetracked during our day into thoughts in which we do not even want to be thinking. The only way to guard against this is to have control in your mind and not let it consume you. Do not take the second look at that girl who is dressed in a way she should not be, but instead think of something else that is noble and good and you will have a better chance at diverting your attention and taking a huge step in becoming a man who has respect for women, or becoming a woman who respects men. This will come as I walk with the Spirit but it is up to me to come out of my shell and let the Spirit in to consume me.  

I got an encouraging comment today and it pretty much brought me to tears. It was from one of my brothers and it showed that he still does care and he still wants to be a part of who i am becoming. It is cool to see that even when you think you could have lost someone, you still are able to have them around and can share great memories together even as you get older. Keep building memories with those you love and see just how much of an impact it can have on you and them. Continue to seek God and all he has for you. If you are not a Christian, keep seeking whatever it is you are looking for, if you feel empty there is someone that can fill that emptiness and all you have to do is let them. I hope you all have a great night!  

God Bless, 

Joseph Robinson