Day 12

Tonight as I was praying before service, the Spirit came over me like never before. I usually just pray and it is the same thing over and over each week. There is nothing wrong with my weekly prayers for the students but tonight was something special and I believe it edified me and will be a huge stepping stone in my walk with Christ. As I was walking around, I just prayed that the students would enter into the pace expecting something to happen and they would walk out completely changed. I also was praying that they would see that just living a "good" life was not what being a Christian is all about. The goal is not to get people to recognize us as people who do not do certain things, it is about showing people that we are working toward a higher calling and reward. The reason we do not participate is not because we cannot or because we are good people, it is because what we have on earth is not worth it in the end. It is not just about living a good life so that you can call yourself a "true Christian", it is about getting to heaven and taking in the promise that God has called us to. We will have something greater than anything we could have here on earth if we strive for it and we achieve it. Our purpose here is to make people desire what we have and it is not about being a good person, it is about being an example of Christ and spreading his word and love for everyone to hear and see. Sure, not sinning is a great tool but that is not what being a Christian is about (in my opinion), we learn from mistakes and strive perfection so that Christ's work can be seen as credible and successful in our lives.

Psalm 37 really resounded with me tonight and I think it it just sends a really good message about how God is always watching over us and the wicked will perish in due time. God has been so faithful and he is showing me exactly which side of the road that I want to be on when it comes to the end for me. David's words are so inspiring and they bring me to my knees before Christ because they make me see my need for Christ and just how much I am valued by him. I do not get put in bad positions or punished because I am doing wrong, he is trying to save me from the destruction that I am headed toward. He is truly watching over me but at times I am just too caught up in myself that I completely disregard his presence and then I just continue with how I was living but he has a funny way of getting back at me by allowing the Spirit to make me feel the guilt of sin. It is a result of the decision to give my life to Christ when I was younger. He knows where my heart truly lies, he just knows that I am human and he has to put in a little extra work to grab my attention. I know he will not give up on me and I will do what I can to overcome the evil that I am up against but I can only do it with his help. I have been put in such an awesome position here with school, baseball, and leadership. I am getting prepared for the rest of my life through the life lessons I have learned here and the hardships I have faced. I am learning to trust God with the things I cannot control and he has proven to be right there and he is handling things really well. Psalm 37:40 states, "The Lord helps them and delivers them; he delivers them from the wicked and saves them, because they take refuge in him."

God is truly amazing and I am thankful for all that he is doing. Continue to seek him and trust him for he is unmatched in every area. Please continue to pray for me and I will pray for you. Thanks again for those of you who read!

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson