Last Chance

So two weeks crumbled in a matter of twelve hours and now I do not know what to think anymore. I know everything I have said matters but for some reason I know he feels like I am not doing what I told him I would not. In the same way, I feel like I am receiving some of what God has dealt with from me in recent months and years. I know that God is in this and that he is moving through my situation, I have no idea what it is he is trying to teach me but I know that it will all be okay in the end. I still love her just like he loves me and I will do anything it takes to keep her within my grasp just as I know he will do with me. I still feel like Job but maybe there is a better story to fit me. I keep pressing on but I just have to look to God for whatever it is he has for me because I cannot keep doing this alone, I am dying inside because of how much I hurt. I know that Jesus felt worse on the cross and every time I sin this is how God feels (and more). I just want to have resolve, I believe he wants this to work out, maybe someone just needs to realize how loved they are and how far someone is willing to go for them even though it hurts them more than anything in the world. I have always been taught that if you want something bad enough you go get it. I will not give up no matter what happens because I know God has given me unconditional love for one person for sure on this earth and I will never throw that away. God is faithful and I am faithful because I know that he has plans and that even though you never know what tomorrow will bring or if there will be a tomorrow so I want to show the ones I love just how much they mean to me because they deserve to know and they do not deserve to be mistreated even when I am unhappy. Sure we do not always get along but I will love them all the time no matter what happens.

I need a break right now and just need guidance and peace from God. Keep praying for me please, I hope to be able to clear my mind and grow even more tomorrow.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson