Struggle

Today was another rough day. Each passing day brings new insight and I think that I am growing in ways that I would never have imagined. The stress is building but I am at peace and am continuing to pray that God will lead and guide me in everything that I do. I am trying to stay within my means and be peaceful but it can be hard sometimes. I never thought I would go through this rough of a time in such a short period of time but I have to just continue to seek God and his plan for my life and make decisions as I normally would. I can and never will be able to do it on my own, especially when it comes to other people in my life. Only God can transform the minds of others or myself when it comes to being at peace and I pray that he will reveal all that he needs to reveal in regards to certain situations over the next few days. I must say that I have faith in him even if I am unsure that it will all work out and I know that ultimately I will get through this because he is bigger than any problem I can face and I know that things will work out for the best. I am trying to grow out of my infant stage in Christ and feel like I am slowly growing up more and more each day but it is tedious work and sometimes the damage caused early on in a child's life, leads to bigger problems down the road.

Two verses that I really needed to hear tonight came from my girlfriend Chelsi, Philippians 4:6-7 states, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." As I begin to pray fervently over the next few days, this verse will be in the back of my mind as I seek God for his peace and guidance and that my heart and mind will be refreshed through his word and through listening to him. There is so much I could write about but my heart is heavy and I know that God will ease my burden as I search for him in prayer. He is my rock and salvation and he will lead me through anything that I face for all my days. I can never leave him because without him, I am nothing and I will follow him forever.

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson