Pressing On

So I dunno who all reads this anymore and that is mostly my fault for not posting everyday and I am almost sure people have lost interest in checking something that they are almost positive will not have an update but I am still working out some busy things and finding time to post things that I learn though I continue to grow everyday and am trying my best to further my walk. I can grow without posting but I have made a promise to do my best to keep this up and it is time for me to keep that promise. Tonight as I sat outside Starbucks with one of my better friends who has definitely seen better days but could definitely use someone to talk to and to cheer her up. Unfortunately I did less time listening and more time talking but I know it was constructive time, better than sitting at home complaining about being bored. I now know that I can get on and I will move on to finish my schooling and I do not need her to be a compassionate interest in my life. When I came back to Orange County last Sunday, I did not know if I could just be friends with her because I still wanted more even though I had agreed about 2 months ago that she made the right decision in helping break anything we had going off. I still care about her and want what is best for her and she is still stunningly gorgeous (sorry if you are reading this but its just how I have felt). I am okay with being friends and even if I never get a chance again to show her how special she has been, I am okay with that because I am at peace for now and if the time rises again then I know that I can always pick up where I left off. It is definitely not the same as it was over the summer but then again, when do things ever happen the same way twice? Sure the outcome is the same but things cannot always be like they were and sometimes they are not even close. I cannot say that she has a special place in my heart because things never got too serious but she definitely has a place as a friend and only God knows where our roads will lead. I came to the realization that God does help us get on with life even when we feel like we cannot go any farther because he cares about us and wants us to be happy. I am so glad I got to spend time with her tonight and she knows that if she ever needs anything, I am always able to lend an ear and if need be and I am in town, I am here to comfort her and take her to Starbucks or Yogurtland. If you know her, I am talking about Sara Taylor and if you do not, well she is just the girl to everyone else :-D

Revelation 4:1-2 says, "After this I looked, and there before me was a door standing open in heaven. And the voice I had first heard speaking to me like a trumpet said, 'Come up here, and I will show you what must take place after this.' " Unfortunately our life is not like a crystal ball and we are not able to look toward the future but God does have a plan for us and he would gladly show us our future if it would not overly excite us. But we have to be patient and learn to trust God because it is not in our hands, the decisions we make help take us to where he has planned for us but sometimes we do not follow God's plan and we can make destructive decisions on our own. I finally learned today that impulse decisions can hurt more than just letting things take their course and giving it all to God. Sometimes you can even ruin what you thought was the best thing to ever happen to you and then you feel like a failure because you might not ever get the chance to fix it. Luckily for us, God can fix things we have broken and if it is in the plans, he will make it work again. We should not dwell on that because that is holding onto baggage, we need to let it go into God's hands and let him guide us from that point on and who knows what will happen down the road. Once again, live every moment as if you do not know what tomorrow holds but use caution when making decisions that could alter your life. I am known to be a little cheesy and I am working on it but in regards to this, one of my favorite movie lines is from Transformers and it states, "50 years from now, don't you want to say you had the guts to get into the car?"  Again, use CAUTION when applying this but when you know that you know it is safe to take the risk, go ahead an do it and wee if it leads to places you never could have imagined. God might be waiting for you to jump but if you do not do it, then you are right where you were before. In the Christian walk, 50 years from now, don't you want to say you had the guts to speak up to that person and change their life? or better yet, change yours? Think about it.

Still have not really had time to look for my devotional book and I have had a lot on my mind this week but I have been making progress and am looking forward to my last week and a half of break before heading back to Manhattan and K-state. Hope you all had a great holiday season and great weekend. 

God Bless,

Joseph Robinson